Nothing too special. It's just that sometimes I wish I could look like this girl. I don't know. She looks gorgeous, foreign, and interesting to me. Other times I want to look like this completely different girl. Most of the time I want a combination of the two. But you know... how can I just suddenly decide to change my entire appearance like that? It's that poser thing that keeps me from it. Like John Cusack said in "High Fidelity," "I felt like one of those people who suddenly shaved their heads and said they'd always been punk." But I'm someone who likes the artsy side of it, and always have. So what am I supposed to do? Keep doing what I'm doing, and not give. That's about it, I guess. But that makes me feel awfully impotent.